30th of May

And just like that, this hell month is ending. By hell, I literally mean the heat we’re experiencing almost every single day of this month. I’m excited for June – not only because of my birthday – ‘coz of the rainy season. No extension of this crazy summer heat please. 😭

I know I should be sleeping at this time because I need to get up at 6:30 AM to prepare for an interview at 8:30 in the morning. This is a hard adjustment for someone who reports to work at mid-shift for the past four years and six months. But I can’t do anything about it, the two companies that I applied for have vacancies with day shift schedules. Though honestly, I prefer to change my work shift because we are still far from returning to office. This is a good chance for me to bring back my body clock to normal. I used to be a morning person so I know I can perfectly function well at 8 AM.

I love and hate being awake at midnight. I like it because I discovered my creativity at writing when everyone is asleep. I hate it because I know I won’t have a good sleep if my eyes don’t close before 3 AM. This week by far is the most important week in my 2021. Why? If I get a job offer and it meets my desired salary, I will be changing almost everything in my daily routine. If I get rejected by both companies, then I would stay with the same routine. I must admit that I’m having a rough time facing each day lately because of waiting for someone in my gmail app. Hoping that the HR would send me a congratulatory email and then my life will change. But this is definitely better than just letting my days pass by without expecting anything good to happen. That has been my outlook since March when it was announced that our process will be migrated. I’ve been very cool about it but looking for opportunities outside actually felt great. So, as you may already know – I did not regret my decision.

I’m turning 25 next month and I’m honestly thankful and quite indifferent about it. I’m grateful for the fact that I will reach that age at this time of the pandemic. I’m indifferent because it feels empty. Well I guess, not until a good job offer comes along and then I’ll feel elated the whole month of June.

It’s now officially May 31. I started writing this at 11:50 PM so the title of this blog post is still valid. I should be writing this later this day but I don’t think I will have free time today because of a number meetings plus the interview in the morning. I’m expecting a busy day ahead of me and an agonizing week of waiting for results. I’ll be back once I get the feedback from my interviews and whoever reads my blog will be informed first of what’s next for me. Take care!

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